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Aug 2, 2004

what else should i be?

what else should i be?
~~all apologies~~.
what else should i say?
e v e r y o n e i s g a y .
what else should i write?
i dont have the right.
what else should i be?
~~ALL APOLOGIES.~~

omg ppl its already august ... AUGUST 2^nd!! the summers going by too fast :( well nothing new's happened around here. i wanted to go to warped tour on the 14^th with kim but... i have to go camping with my mom. which will still be fun but not AS fun. ooh ya i made the new web design a while ago. I LOVE it. its so purtyful! oh ya i had to watch the neighbours two cats for a week. :S my dad said i had to do it. :( but the cats were really cute so it wasnt that bad which is totally against the point that i HAD to. oh well anyways i got 30 bucks for doing it...

So i found out that this guy (and i dont fucking care if you ARE reading this cuz im not saying real names but im still gonna say it) likes one of my other best friends. BUT hes liked a whole bunch of ppl before that and apparently hes liked her the whole time and "whenever he liked anyone else he was always thinking of her" Corny but meh thats what i heard from a semi-reliable source. anyways im sorry dude but u cant get all pathetic when a girl doesnt like you. ok a lot of guys i kno have done this but whenever a girl didnt like them they would find another person to like almost immediatly. like PPL what is wrong with you. OBVIOUSLY you didnt like them that much if your just gonna give up like that! maybe not in this case, but maybe not all ppl are into that love at first site or blind date kinda thing.. maybe they actually wanna get to kno you first. who knos maybe after you get to kno them better they will start liking you too. highly unlikely but still a chance. and if you do give up ur gonna beat ur self up wondering wut could have happened had you waited before giving up.

Also i would like to say that i think (my opinion) you should only really like one person at a time or else it isnt <3 "love" should be your whole heart.. if they dont have your whole heart then it isnt meant to be or at least not at the time. you can try but it wont work. so "dude" if u didnt fucking like the other ppl that you said u liked. why did u fucking say it! i dont mean to sound rude and i kno im probably gonna hear about this when "someone" reads this but the point is maybe she did like you and she was just saying it at the time cuz she didnt realize it but then you didnt really like her :S like wtf. she probably didnt but thats against the point if you dont really like the person then dont say it because they might just believe you. and dont think im taking this out on u its just thats one of my little ticks with guys. k i kno i shouldnt be complaining about this cuz its not of my business (hint hint i dont really care that you liked her all that time cuz hint hint i didnt really like you anyways!!!!) ok that was mean but meh everyone knos it anyways.

*Note to Self - Complaining DOES NOT make things better

anyways i dont like nickleback or w.e his name is but my dad downloaded the song someday .. i think its called that but anyways so he told me to watch the video and see if i could find the meaning in the pointless video... it wasnt very pointless! the guy in it (not the singer the actor) was fucking hott!! lol well i think he was his names like Clint Carleton or something like that.. dont do a google on him cuz i already checked for pics lol there were none :(

So uhm kim is gone till friday i think :( she went up to her cottage. I LOVE YOU KIM! I MISS YOU ALREADY! lol shes been gone one day :P btw we always say we love each other its our thing :P kim is awesome! she likes wrestling which i dont like but she makes me watch it with her. the whole "sexy very muscular guys in nut huggers" thing is very...uhm nice lol but not natural! ..its funny and very nice to look at lol but very wrong. anyways back to kim ..she has awesome taste in music! and she is oneday gonna be a wrestler or :o kim u should be a guitarist!! lol uhm or no but it would be fun. kim is very good at the geetar and shes teaching me! anyways ya ive known her since like grade 2 i think ..when i moved to hamilton. and shes awesome! lol im sayin it again

oh well i dont have anything else to say so im gonna stop blogging. i love this blogging thing its so addicting!

robin

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Aug 1, 2004

ugh so bored

Bold the ones that apply to you.
Underline the ones that really apply to you.

01. I've known my best friend for more than 3 years
02. I still watch cartoons
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. But mostly to read the blackboard.
09. I want more piercings.
10. but i can't ever get any more :(
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didn't believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm a ~~sometimes~~ loud and funny person.
23. A boy in high school shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people critisize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am sometimes a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a lot of close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to MSN.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family. they're the only ones i got.
48. I loathe hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers.
54. I love dancing.
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I used to cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I feel lucky i met the right guy.
59. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my LJ, DJ, and GJ friends. <---WHAT?
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry over their stupidity.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I wish I had more money.
71. I like to say what's on my mind. <-- sometimes
72. I hate blue jeans
73. I'm online a lot.
74. I have 2 goldfish
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more money on friends/family.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car
91. I love glitter
92. I sometimes wish i was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94.I love to have fun.
95. I get amused so easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.
100. I'm graduating highschool in June!

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ugh so bored

in storybooks children grow up to become leaders.
innocence leads our young to fall victim to the disadvantages our parents brought before them.
grow up fast and lose sight of becoming an influence.
and ill never sleep, ill never sleep again
they stole our innocense, you b r o k e our foundation.
broken by production, released at ten.
after birth the hand that feeds may bleed.
legos build the outcome, whether its mental or physical,
^beforeyou_killyour^idols,kiss_themgoodnight.

on friday i went to the mall and got my new mp3 player. woohoo. i tried to figure out how to work it and i ...think i figured it out lol wow am i slow or wut.

While we were walking around and shopping, I came to this huge realization. I think there are very few people who think for themselves these days. I was looking at some new shoes and over heard some girls talking about what shoes they should get. "Well, I think I'm gonna get a pair of converse because, like, Ashlee Simpson was wearing them and they were totally hot." and then the other girl was like "Yea! Me too! I think I'm going to get my hair cut like hers too. That look seems to be really in right now." THEN I was trying on pants and the girl next to my room was trying on baggy pants. She came out of the dressing room and was like "Oh, I don't really like how these look." but her friend said "They make you look exactly like Avril Lavigne!" and she replied "Well, in that case I'm getting them."

What the fuck people? What the fuck. Why can't society make their own decisions, whether it be what kind of clothes you wear or whatever, based on what they want and not base them around a celebrity, what they read in a teenie bopper magazine, or what is currently considered to be "in".

I was telling my friend over msn about wut they said. He told me that I was too opinionated. Well, fuck you too! :S lol From now on, I will not worry about society and what it is doing to the minds of our children. From now on, I'll sit back and watch my generation deteriorate into $10 whores, anorexics, and wannabe rappers cuz that is what message the media is giving: "Pimp them hoes!" "You don't look good until you can squeeze yourself into size 0!" The future, as of now, doesn't look too bright to me. We are all just slaves to corporate America.

UGH!! anyways i just had to say that cuz thats one of those many "ticks" that i find annoying.

robin

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Jul 30, 2004

another quizzy thing

OH YA KIM IF U SEE THIS BYE!!! lol I LOVE YOU EVEN THO UR LEAVING ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IS!! :'( TAKE ME WITH YOU :P lol anyways have a great time!! BYE!!!

YoU ...oR i GuEsS mE!

.:. name: robino lol no ..its robin
.:. single or taken: single
.:. sex : Female
.:. birthday: june 16th
.:. siblings: 2 sister 1 bro
.:. hair color: brown
.:. eye color: Blue
.:. shoe size: 8-8 1/2
.:. height: uhh

R e L a T i O n S h I p S
.:. who is your best friend?: um two best... kim and jenn :P
.:. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no umm isnt that the single taken thing :S
.:. do you have a current crust?: umm... not really
F a S h I o N
.:. where is your favorite place to shop: almost everywhere in the mall
.:. tattoos: none
.:. piercings: ears

S p E c I f I c S
.:. do you do drugs?: no
.:. what kind of shampoo do you use?: herbal essences :P
.:. what are you most scared of?: heights
.:. who is the last person that called you?: um kim!
.:. where do you want to get married?: oh ....
.:. how many buddies are online right now?: um only like 20

F a V o R i T e S
.:. color: Black , blue red white
.:. boys names: john taylor :P soo purty lol :S :P
.:. girls names: uh
.:. subjects in school: i liked uh..lets see...nothing
.:. animals: dogs

H a V e Y o U e V e R
.:. given anyone a bath?: no..
.:. smoked?: no
.made yourself throw up?: ---
.:. skinny dipped?: :P
.:. ever been in love?: idk lol
.:. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yes

C u R r E n T
.:. clothes: pyjama pants white tanktop
.:. music: Alice Cooper - Poison lol thanks to kim and jacob
.:. make-up: black eyeliner
.:. annoyance: headache
.:. smell: nothing
.:. favorite group: :D lots metallica A7x past group GNR
.:. desktop picture: GNR symbol
.:. book youre reading: lol none.
.:. crush: umm

L a S t P e R s O n
.:. you touched: my mom?
.:. hugged: er..my dog? lol i have no clue
.:. you imed: kimpster
.:. you yelled at: no one
.:. you kissed: uh

A r E y O u
.:. understanding: yes i guess
.:. open-minded: yes
.:. arrogant: not really.
.:. insecure: meh who cares
.:. interesting: uh.. :S lol
.:. random: sometimes
.:. smart: people say I am
.:. moody: oh hell yeah
.:. hard working: I can be.
.:. organized: Sometimes.

R a N d O m
.:.In the morning i am: Waking up and goin on msn
.:. all i need is: MSN and MUSIC!!.. lol and friends
.:. love is: a waste of time
.:. i dream about: stuff that i forget in the morning :S

O p P o S i T e SeX
.:. what do you notice first: eyes
.:. who makes you laugh the most: like a guy?? um... i guess rich
.:. makes you smile: ME!! or does it have to be a guy again? ^^
.:. who do you have a crush on: dont anymore :P or maybe.. idk

D o Y o U
.:. sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: hahahahha no
.:. wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: no
.:. have a crush on someone?: not currently lol

N u M b E r
.:. of times i have had my heart broken: ZIPPO!!
.:. of hearts i have broken: i d k
.:. of girls ive kissed: 0
.:. of continents i have lived in: 1
.:. of tight friends: um a few TIGHT ones lol
.:. of cds i own: only a few most are on comp
.:. of guys you've liked the past year: one...

F i N a L q U e S t I o N s
.:. do you like fillings these out?: if i didn't would I be doing it?
.:. gold or silver: Silver
.:. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: uh
.:. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: havent ate nething in like .. a ..long..time
.:. who would you love being locked in a room with?: hehe
.:. could you live without your computer?: NEVER!!
.:. would you color your hair?: YES
.:. habla espanol? not really i understand some of it
.:. parle le francais? sure why not
.:. how many people are on your buddy list?: i have no idea
.:. drink alcohol? no
.:. smoke? no

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Jul 25, 2004

AmY lEe!! ShEs So PrEtTy!!

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Jul 23, 2004

Funny things to do in an elevator

Funny Things 2 do in an elevator...lmao these r so funni!

1. Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering: "Shut up, dammit, all of you just shut UP!"

2. Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.

3. Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask: "Got enough air in there?"

4. Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear yours upside-down.

5. Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.

6. When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.

7. Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you Admiral.

8. On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.

9. Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on!"

10. When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back: "Oh, no, not now, damn motion sickness!"

11. Meow occasionally.

12. Holler "Chutes away!" whenever the elevator descends.

13. Walk on with a cooler that says "human head" on the side.

14. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce "You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.

15. Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.

16. When the elevator is silent, look around and ask "is that your beeper?"

17. Say "Ding!" at each floor.

18. Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.

19. Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.

20. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."

21. Announce in a demonic voice: "I must find a more suitable host body."

22. Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.

23. Wear "X-Ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.

24. Stop at every floor, run off the elevator, then run back on.

25. Push the buttons for every level.

26. Jump up and down on the elevator when it moves.

:P cute stuff :D

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Jul 22, 2004

Quizzy thing

the usual.
name: Robin
female or male: female
birthday: june 16 1989
color eyes: blue
where do you live now: hamilton
age: 15

what you're doinq now.
listening to: metallica
looking at: computer screen
eatinq or drinking: nothing
wearing: shorts, t shirt
talking to: no1
are you online: oui
are you on the phone: no
your mood and why: wow i can go on forever bout this

favorites.
color: blue green black
number: 4
food: pizza
song: 2 many
show: lots
animal: dogs
drink: pepsi / sprite / lots
snack: mm skittles
dessert: apple pie :D
store: lots
past time: chatin and listenin to music
childhood toy: didnt have one
person: my friends
telephone number: uh
eye color: :D green
salad dressinq: ranch

your bedroom.
describe your bed spread: blue other side yellow :D prettyful
color of your walls: blue
have a tv: yea
have a radio: oui
stuffed animals on your bed: none
how many pillows: 1
do you like your bedroom: i luuurve it
what position are you in when you first qo to sleep: i dunno :S
what position are you in when you first wake up: i dunno
is your bed comfortable: yeah
what's under your bed: nuffin

this or that.
coke or pepsi: pepsi all the way
mcdonald's or wendy's: wendys
tv or radio: tv
car or truck: i love black pick up trucks donno y but ooh hot guys in trucks :P
zebra or giraffe: giraffe
penquin or dolphin: dolphin
tea & water or soda: soda
hamburqer or hot doq: hotdog
britney or christina: christina
brad pitt or ashton kutcher: ashton
rap or rock: rap sux ass ROCK IS AWESOME
colored or black and white pictures: colored
scary or comedy movies: both
suqar or spice: sugar
unicorns or fairies: none
toes or finqers: fingers.... ;)
hard bed or soft bed: soft bed
raqqedy ann or andy: uh
love or lust: love

first thinq that comes to mind.
mules: a mule .....
blinkinq liqhts: who wants to be a millionair....4 sum reason
homosexuals: uh
outkast: hey ya
the dentist: evil

what do you think of when you hear these names:
james: hott
joey: FRIENDS :D
jill: jack and jill
bart: simpson
herald: Hey arnold?
bob: invisible friends
fred: flinstones
jack: and jill went up da hill
muhammad: MO HO!!!!!
richard: (rich) ooo sexy lol (Y)
tom: and huck
lindsay: lohan eww
philip: uh
kimberly: :o my bestest bud

your childhood.
did you always qet your way: never
did you have any pets: jake :D
your favorite toy: umm
did you have a special blanket: nope
GI joes or barbies: i hate barbies nvr played with em a day in my life
did you wear underwear with the days of the week on them: naw
did you wear your underwear in the riqht places: uhh yes
did you think there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: i still do
what about geese: huh...
did you turn off the light and jump in your bed so nothing would qet you: Yeah
were you scared of the dark: lol umm... maybe :D
did you have boyfriends/girlfriends: yea 1st one was in kindergarden till grade 3 when i moved my little hottie brad
favorite friend when you were little: my sis :D
did you qo to the zoo or the circus: zoo
did you think ninja turtles really lived in the sewer: nope
did you build snowmen: yeah
did you have really bad hair cuts: dont think so

random.
if a fat person knocked you over what would you do next: run away...
wasn't the pink power ranqer awesome: i guess so..
what's the scariest dream you've ever had: umm
ever seen a qhost: uh no
what are you scared of: being alone at night :'( scarrry
do you have a disposal in your kitchen: nope
what's your qreat qrandmother's name: alice
what's somethinq you can't qet enouqh of: my friends and mint chocolate chip icecream :P
what do you wish you were doinq now: with my buds ALL OF U cept one who is startin to bug me :S
future kid's names: Boys: donno Girls: donno
how do you control your anqer: ya lets see umm hold it in
how do you relieve your stress: i dont
do you workout: yeah
cuss: lol sometimes
drink: nope
smoke: nope
are you a stronq person: nope
do you like to burn candles: scented ones
how many candles are in your room: none right now
have you ever liked someone who wasnt single: yupp :( not fun
what do you wish your room looked like: the way it is
ever been burqlarized: HA...thats a funny word
how many liqhts are in your house: wut i dunno
how many phones are in your house: 4 or 5
ever been to a tim mcqraw concert: ....who the fuck is that??
what about britney or christina: noooo
what about nsync or backstreet boys: nawwwwwww

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Jul 21, 2004

On The Good Side

I HAD AN AWESOME TIME AT KIMMYS!!! hehe
watching S.W.A.T
playin the geeetar :D
playing with the kitties
eatin Tic tacs yummy
walking to ur house then the school then the store then my house then ur house then my house again
seeing jake :P
listening to music
talkin on msn

lol good times anyways we have to do that again sometime but jenn has to come since she is aka. the life of the party apparently sorry.. PARTAY!! yes anyways hmm trying to stay on good news wow ppl have changed alot in one year! or in a couple weeks .. my bro looks way different but i havent seen him in like more than a year anyways REALLY long time I MISS YOU DAVE!!! MUAH!! :P lol uhh i forget who it was but i saw him at the mall when i was with jenn and michelle and he looked different.. matt d looks different.. saw him over by jenns.. JENN LOOKS DIFFERENT!!! i havent seen you in so long!!! like 4 days!! think thats the longest i havent seen you for :'( *tear* hope you feel better buddddyyy!!!:D i want to see ur new hair cut!!! i havent seen a lotta ppl in a while sam, rich, jesse, TAZ (omg shes in india lucky fucker) i havent gone anywhere yet and shes gone there *shakes fist* shoulda put me in ur suitcase but noooo u just wait till u get back SERIOUS REVENGE!!!! anyways im tired this is like the most ive written in a long time!! I LOVE YOU ALL!! so uh gonna go now and mine and kims thing will end this very fun paragraph US SINGING WHILE WE WALK AWAY!! uh hum *clears throat* MY...... bags are packed.......... im ready to go...... im standing here..... outside your door.... i hate to wake you up to say GOODBYE!!! GOODBYE!!

hehe im listening to unholy confessions AWESOME song!!!!

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Jul 15, 2004

Unholy Confessions

Avenged Sevenfold
Unholy Confessions


"I'll try," she said as he walked away.
"Try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confined in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.

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Jul 14, 2004

Cute stuff

    :|| h3 rAn inT0 mEh knIf3... hE rAn inTo my KnIfE 10 time$||:
                        /x/cHiCaqO/x/
        :+: ii fIrEd 2 w@rNinq sHotS iNto hIs hE@D:+:

"Me? I'm scarred of everthing, I'm scared of what I saw, of what I did, of who I am, but most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my life the way I feel when I'm with you."--this is so cute...

*ItS tHaT cAnT eAt-CaNt SlEeP-rEaCh FoR tHe StArS-oVeR tHe FeNcE-wOrLd SeRiEs KiNdA tHiNg*

                                                                  - - » •x• O •x• « - -
                                                   and I meant - - every word I said
                                                  when I said that I love you I meant
                                                              that I love you forever
                                                   and I`m gonna keep on lovin you <3

Im not supposed to love you,

Im not supposed to care,

Im not supposed to live my life,

Wishing you were there.

Im not supposed to wonder

where you are or what you do,

Im sorry I just cant help myself,

I fell in love with you

Posted at 06:18 pm by xfromxinsidex
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